I can't believe you. How could you leave so soon? You come to me with a friendly greeting and a smile. You tell me, "Everything is okay now. You're free!" But that was a lie...That only lasts for a short time. My freedom is so short lived and it's all your fault. You speed by like a roller coaster even though I tell you over and over to go slow. I don't want to go back to that prison. It's so full of misery and angry people whos souls are dead and cold. Many demons lurk there, all wanting to steal your heart and crush your soul. My sword is not near strong enough to slay all those demons by myself. I'm just a little insomniac and they don't serve medicene there. I need my medicene. I have many fears that I can barely tell you them all. I'm so scared I'll be judged there were when I'm with you summer, I can be myself and ignore all my anxiety. I'm scared I'll be thrown into a deep pit of drama and I won't be able to ever climb out. I'm scared I'll become overwhelmed with all the work and responsibility I'll be given there. What if I can't keep up and I fall behind?
Also...I'm so scared of what my parents will think. Summer, you are my protection from their wrath. With you around I no longer have to work hard to be that perfect straight A student they want. But now that your gone, I have to push aside my feelings and continue to hard work. I know that inside I'll never be my parents want. I'm not perfect...there's so much I wish I could tell my parents, but that would only make them ashamed of me. I can't let that happen. Probably my biggest fear is that I'll slip up and I'll be punished. I can't even express how much I fear for this. I don't want my parents to ashamed of me so I put on the "Perfect Daughter" mask for them. It keeps them happy but it's never enough for them. I don't even want to think about the battles that await me. What if I break and end up hurting them with my words? I find it easier to take all their insults and never stand up from my comfy chair. What if my heart tells me, "Thats enough, Stand up. It's time." I want them to be happy even if it costs my own happiness...
So Summer, I ask you, why are you so cruel? You pull this stunt every year. Coming and then leaving me behind. I hate it but yet I can never hate you. I'm always waiting for you to return and it's killing me. So I beg you Summer, please stay. Please protect me from the disease of the world. It's spreading so quickly and is consuming so many souls. I'm afraid that I've already caught it and it's eating me alive. So I'm on my knees, tears in my eyes, begging you. Don't let the monsters of depression eat me alive. Save me!
I know that you won't accept my request so...I will wait. I will wait for you to return and when you do...I'll embrace you and love more then I ever have before. I love you too much that I must forgive you for your bad habits. So until next time, my dear friend. Take care, I'll miss you with all of my heart. But I know your doing whats best for me and my future. I will be awaiting for return.
Your Lonely Friend.